turns out chandru uncle gave me steppenwolf to read after reading my writing and thinking i might relate to it. so he was surprised when my reaction to the book was - relief in not being like the dude in the book.
here's the difference:
Harry Haller aka. Steppenwolf: i guess life's pretty alright...but i cant enjoy anything ever cause i'm daft like that.
Me: Life sucks sometimes huh? oh well i'll just have to grab all the joy out of it in the most hedonistic way possible then. kthxbai!
but the disturbing part is now i probably should go back and read some of the things i've written over the years...dark? depressing? really?