Friday, 21 December 2007
i recently read 'the little friend' but it's still with me...making itself at home in my mind. it's not so much individual characters as the mood the vibe the feeling of the book that got under my skin and stayed...that made my bawl my eyes out on a bus with a complete stranger sitting next to me for a whole chapter...its completely different from 'the secret history' which is a book best compared to 'the beach'...this one reminded me of ya ya and to kill a mockingbird but only because of the setting...the rest is all new...or not...its about being alone in the world while being surrounded by people who are completely useless...parents, sibling, aunts...and the only people who do mean anything die/leave/change... and its got an edge of real danger...imminent death...just one false move....
oh she knows how to write.
ooh im in a go read what i tell you to sort of mood!
five random books that i think you should read that you might not already have:
1. the secret history - donna tartt [so that you can get addicted and come back for seconds]
2. rough music - patrick gale
3. the rules of attraction - bret easton ellis [it connects to the first one is a most delightful way]
4. anything anything by haruki murakami because that is just like nothing else
5. walden - thoreau
Saturday, 24 November 2007
Friday, 9 November 2007
Thursday, 1 November 2007
this makes me so sick...you can translate this using: www.freetranslation.com
and go here for background info: http://news.deviantart.com/article/36326/?offset=75#comments
Friday, 3 August 2007
cannot wait for monday..cannot wait to get to chennai
the wedding on wed will be a lovely break!
had a disturbed night..tensiony dreamaage...n horrible man u news
just so so so shite...smith...heinze...just wrong it all is...and the stupid tevez business...
and also for my amusement i feel that the fia shud just disqualify ferrari and mclaren instead of what they r currently doing, which is bledy ignoring all wrongdoing...then some daft person like barrichello or coulthard can win the championship...yaay! meh...whatever...
i just want to get home and relax...i get 4 proper days in chennai with my pinkay
then 4 days in blore with pinkay, k, s, d and l...happy happy...cannot wait to talk and talk and talk and lose my voice...then after the pinkay leaves i wil be the good lil auntiji and bond with the baaba...and all that... shud be good...nothing nothing will ruin my mood then...
and now back to editing grammatical errors out of my diss.
good afternoon and good luck.
Monday, 30 July 2007
Wednesday, 25 July 2007
Wednesday, 18 July 2007
this is the song that has been haunting me on the radio! and now i know who its by! arctic monkeys! awesomeness...[bakery is lowely as well!]
back to this one...found it by googling the lil bits of lyrics that stuckkk in my braine...fishnets...best you ever had...best you ever had...daft...
and is it not the best title??
also what is it with videos and clowns??
theres this one and the holloways one! generator!
Tuesday, 17 July 2007
^ random facebook doodling, love the grafitti app. cant think of anything to write about and havent blogged in a while..so going to pick somthing off this pic and blab away...thing that i love most about this has got to be the yellow shtars...my patrick gale - rough music reference. lovely book. awright it's creepy...strange...not too pleasant...but it has a good ending...and features those lovely yellow stars... i will just ruin it for you and tell you all...not giving away plot secrets but this was the best...one o the main chars is hanging out with this dude he likes...and they r in a vehicle of some sort...and he gets a star plonked on his forehead...and the fella tells him all bout the stars, he has em stuck to things around his plc as well...on the kettle...etc...when he was in therapy...he had to make a list of all the things that make him happy...and everytime he sees one o the stars he remembers one thing on the list........
Tuesday, 12 June 2007
Monday, 11 June 2007
i wonder who naomi works for...and ben cannot be a good guy...the others r evil...and i dont think mikhail is dead, if he survived spear gun..he can survive grenade! for sure! sooo glad locke isnt dead! the return of walt! noice! not a major michael fan...i dont think juliet looks that much like sarah to be honest...russo/alex moment was good...hate that there be revealing flashbacks then death...so annoying...the nadia moment in charlie's hero flashback - #2 on the list? ...missed nadia...sayid is so much better with shannon out of the picture...but i do like how shannon and boone made appearances in the nikki paulo epi...omg richard alpert is luis as revealed to me by the genius that is imdb! suddenly its richard! and suddenly he's there again looking as dashing as ever...unaged...stil wearing the ol' mascara/eyeliner ;)
what is the deal with jacob? and the black smoke? and the flashes? and penny? where does penny come in? why r all the dads conked...other than charlie's o course...omg claire is jack's half sister! who died in the flash forward? one o the initiative dudes said the name in the paper started with 'j'...not sawyer cause most prob kate was going home to him...or not! she be stupid nit. n she doesnt deserve him...leaves locke or juliet i guess...and obv kate wudnt go it twas juliet i dont think...but id expect ppl to go for locke...more n just jack anyhoo...he's not some hateable dude...naomi's dead no? how did goodwin die? he died in season 2 right? i dont rem how tho...the juliet goodwin relationship is quite creepy...cause goodwin and ethan both make my skin crawl. ethan more so tho. ethan is so so scary. as scary as ben.
ooh brainwash room was the kewlness! mm...fish biscuit! ohh the u speak to me as though i am your brother was soooo conked...not a nice way to die at all...but i did like the whole i do not ask for forgiveness for i have not sinned...i did what i could do with the life i was given. i get that. he had to do it...most of them when they kill someone on the show r forced into it...like the sun colleen thing...excellent...ur not a killer...i know you...*steps forward* bang!
Sunday, 3 June 2007
Monday, 7 May 2007
i think i lowe all of his movies that iv seen so far...good will hunting, elephant, this one...and i think he made finding forrester...elephant was better than last days i think...but last days is more...well hard to watch it about right..doesnt mean its bad, images and bits will stay with me forever...at the back of my mind..it's just obscure and vague and rambly [i lowe rambly] to the point where one shot is so so long...and you know you should be looking at at so and so...but you wander...you watch the leaves and the way the wind is blowing...and you listen to the little noises...it was good.
mmm what else...my hair smells of vibudhi from the big blue lush bath i had on friday...either im demented and imagining it or it lingers...stil. smell is a wonderful thing...i was using this coconut lotion and when i smell myself i think of butter biscuits. i crave em. and after the fri bath...iv washed my hair twice...on sun and today...and i used this minty oil thing...so really i shudnt be able to...
am living in this strange place [not literally]...the room was dark when i was watching...and it was something to do with the curtains being drawn...and the light and one wall looked like it was wallpapered with vertical stripes of orange and white and blue...and my curtains are red...but there is a blue wall...beyond...the outside wall of the other block is blue...
Thursday, 26 April 2007
logically will be a good thing if i get my design formatted the right size right now.
but i just cant make myself...am i going to end up doing the mental wake up at 4 am thing again? what is with me? procrastination for the sake of it...i am moste deranged.
dont get me. mm...
need a jacket, but sweat underneath. i actually felt compelled to take a shower!
how mental is that? and my fingers smelt funny for about half the day...like old rubberbands...but not a total loss. got notes for lit review organised. shal be able to write off the last two sections. and watched some epis of black books. soo funny. shaun of the dead guy in. not the main guy...one side fella. cute boi. brit humour is amazing. the weather however sucketh to infinity. giv me a chennai summer any day!
Sunday, 15 April 2007
Live in fiction
Listen to the rain
Rituals after dinner
Apples on the plate
Live in noir
Listen to the story
Rituals to connect
Nine lives of Garfield
Live past tense
Listen to his eyes
Rituals that were
Hurt on the plate
Listen to him fall
Rituals to come
Bottle of Mountain Dew
Tuesday, 10 April 2007
havent written in a while so heres an unpdate. easter with the parents.
went to some random english village/smal town. dunno where exactly.
meant to go to whitby but never got there, too much traffic.
finished watching marnie. i shtil like the movie i say.
watched half of wilde. stephen fry is the awesome. jude law can act. i know that. i always knew that and this movie is the perfect example. all you dimwits out there who disagree, watch wilde! then talk. then watched the namesake at cineworld with mame. good movie. good acting. i like the kal penn modi boi. i even like him as taj mahal whatever frm banglapur. lol. sunday: watched f1, alonso won. good good. lewis hamilton's pater does not look old enuf to be his daddie. they look a bit exactly the same in fact. the only thing more scary is dhani harrison. saw concert for george. am more n more in love with clapton and mccartney now. esp clapton. clapton is the mucho awesome. and dhani is the cloney it is shit scary. its the whole colin hanks thing. and the case of siddharth and rajan maama.
mmm...got to finish watching wilde and watch spring, summer, autumn, winter...and spring by wed. got to return em then. got to take the living pictures book with me to meeting tomm.
fingerscrossed. i quite like my ideas. but will she?
mm...dunno. to sleep. to dream. to wake anew. different. myself.
Thursday, 5 April 2007
Wednesday, 4 April 2007
the beginning bit was the amazing. with the training of the boy and the wolf. and its eyss. and the skulls. and ohh i lowe the madness? this is sparta! *kick* bit. lol. all good. dont need all of the movies i watch to be cerebral. ishtyle dialogue can do it for me too. and good dismemberment done well. lowely. its like i can love y tu mama tambien and before sunrise/sunset and 300 and reservoir dogs and clueless and everything is illuminated and the chipmunk adventure. i have no conflict in my soul or anything. they r all bootiful.
Tuesday, 3 April 2007
theres a lot of focus shifting. the vid is simple. just them doing their thing.
but it works. it goes with the intensity of the song. he looks into the camera.
his face goes in and out of focus. juxtaposed on a mish of images. plants. rain.
warm subtle dim lighting. it rains on him. song seems shorter than i rem.
lovely last line. see your blue eyed problem. wow. he looks like christian bale at times. its the smile. mmm. lissening to 'poor misguided fool' now. its weird how the killers sound more actively brit than starsailor. but now that i kno that they r vegas bois o course thats changed things. stil lowe em both. starsailor man is sounding more bale like as well. american psycho bale. patrick bateman.
lots of starsailor songs i havent hrd on youtube i say.
good lyrics. i wont let it kill me this time.i wont let it kill me this time.
to the surface, came a feeling. left me useless. left me reeling.
...best bit of the movie even...:D...going to watch 300 today. cannot wait.
but before that got to bathe. lunche. pick up letter frm design reception. get to vis com. work on the logo design for a bit. get some options together.
mmm...people have such diff ideas bout the logo...but i think i shal go with the feedback frm pinkay...wil keep going along current lines...produce a bunch of options..then email off to ppls..see what they say...mmm...
it should be fine.
and now for something fun! i leave u with the awesomness that is alvin and the chipmunks!!
Monday, 2 April 2007
:) happy me. had meeting with supervisor only at 1, so could sleep late even.
and its lovely and sunny out today...mmm saw some ppl dressed all lotr shtyle standing around with swords and fully roleplaying on the grass...reminded me of gamerz...awesome movie, random but good...makes u wanna get into the whole role play scene...i could so be into it...if id come across ppl obsessed with it that is...
borrowed the bell jar. looking fwd to reading it.
working on my canvas. all good.
Sunday, 1 April 2007
now tis the sunday and im free. free as a bird.
gonna lissen to some beatles.
...bright are the stars that shine...dark is the sky...i know this love of mine...will never die...and i love her......and go shopping for food in the afternoon.
happy happy day. it seems to be moderately sunny at the moment.
can be fully the random and un worried. goodies goodies.
i feel the glee. not venty and ranty like yest.
just all sunny honey.
mm...fried egg for brekkie methinks.
in a while. cooked to perfection.
...guess i should get to the story of tulasi then eh? or tulsi. which might be a better spelling. anyway...jalandhar '
just wait lil nephew...i am going to educate u in so many lil ways...i could be obi wan. i could be a character out of almost famous, all boho and exciting...mm...so many possibilities... :)
and now back to work.
Saturday, 31 March 2007
i feel alone. just want a zooey glass in my life really. someone who's going to call me up pretending to be buddy...someone who's going to tell me exactly how fucked up i am...words of love. what needs to be said. salinger knows all. he wrote the glass family. how? ...one more thing to think about rather than work. shit. well my only theory now is that i need a change. too late for a change of location. don't want to walk up to uni now. so..got my hair up a different way. back to the ol' sigur ros strategy? or what? what??
guess this is just a whiny lil thingy im gonna do...dont have a journal on paper anymore..dont kno why i stopped doing that...maybe that's y im going insane..anyway...got to go work on the bledy lit review in the afternoon..it goes on...life goes on...went to the brit lib yest...found the complete plays of sarah kane...she killed herself in '98, that's not long ago at all. she's close enough to touch...she was where i am...i dont kno if she was here precisely but blasted was set in leeds...read bits of the beatles anthology also...photocopied stufs for my walls...read some serious for proj stuf also...made notes...photocopies...people's names pop up.. familiar names...names i know, names iv met...names iv read...names in a telephone book...shostakovich...theres a version of hamlet out there in the world somewhere...in russian...with a score by shostakovich...how quirky and delightful...wonder if i'll ever find it...maybe i'll trip over it someday in a delighfully surprising way...
...dreamt of chennai ppls. sighs. it was absurd, but real. painful. but bootiful. wish i was there. dont kno when i will be next. i do kno that it will be different. empty. lacking. more people moved away. moved on. sigh.
hope i get some work done today. got to.