Tuesday, 30 December 2008


suddenly in the mood to write a new year post...or an end of year post. the question is: have i changed since last new year? (which honestly was sucky as things always go wrong on new yrs...i dont think iv had a really good new yr in like ever...the over hyping and planning and blahdiblah get in the way, its like the expectation of new year can never be fulfilled) anyway this year iv tried not to plan and theres a good feeling in the air. apart from the fact that pli wont be here :( but i will see her on fri and do a repeat new year/postponed christmas gift exchange thing :D prolong the holiday season a tad.


sitting here watching vids on my youtube favourites list. watching john mayer singing comfortable (live version) i am such a sucker for that song. and have been for a bunch of years now and will be for the forseeable future. i have a good favourites list. all things i do rewatch periodically wonly (a bit of fry and laurie, darcy in the lake in lost in austen...) or excessively cool things (eg; easy/lucky/free vid, nph and marshall singing confrontation, david tennant on the catherine tate show...)

im still me. possibly a me who enjoys quoting things at ppl more. and a more living for the moment me...or i could be deluded and i always was this way, but just didnt notice it. that sounds more likely really.


i hate john mayer and his baking blogs and for making me want to bake when i obviously cannot without an oven :( cooker cake anyone? i could try it...but ill probly feel lazy tom and need to pretty self up for new yr :) i plan to wear my lil black french chick type dress.
ok fine. i actually love john mayer to bits.

Sunday, 28 December 2008

*hides under the sheets*

theres this incredibly scary ad on tv right now. hdfc life insurance. it's about how this little boy loses his remote controlled car and then this random visitor man happens to say that he'll buy him a new one. and the boy is all: why shud you buy one, my father will get me one! and then the stupid stupid tactless idiot of a man (this is the scary part, the tactlessness) says: but what if ur father gets lost as well. and the boy's all crushed. it's horrrrible. and then the father comes in at that moment and says: even if that happens, ill still get it for you. and the boy is all gleed. it's a conked. even if im gone. my life insurance will provide for my family type thing. i mean the ad disturbs me and im 22. how scary must this be for kids to watch. but then there r many things i just didnt get when i was small...so i dunno. hate hate hate it tho.

Tuesday, 23 December 2008

gorram airtel 垃圾・垃圾! 牛糞・牛粪!

where to start when describing this true suckfest of a day. woke up and knew i had to get to the airtel office fast as the freaks decided to bar my calls just on the days when ppl are meant to get in touch we me about jobs and the like. so i go to the closest office and basically lost it there. was all boohoo and alarmed them much. but that was beacause i was thinking of all the many things that are stressing my brain at the mo. so hence it was like right overreaction much? it's just your phone...anyway they said go to the head office which thankfully was a short walk away. take passport copy. resubmit documents. so i go home. get the copy. walk to the second office. take a number '315' waiting..waiting. then this man comes over and i all what are you here for. i exp. he's all u need to resubmit because u havent filled in one form thats probly why...but u need to resubmit passsport photo too. i was all pissed off and 'cant u just rip it off the old form?' he was all 'no'. so went back home. got the photos. came back. took a number '329' waited..got to the counter. produce my documents and she's all but you need proof of local address...and im all (pissed off) and all 'you should have asked me for it in the first plc, look when i was getting the sim, i wasnt reequired to produce anything so asking for it now is just unfair!' and she was all....erm...oh yeah there's the form. FUCKERS! pfft. right. dont give it to me in the first plc. make it so that i cant call ppl and that ppl cant call me. never mind if i dont get a fucking job. then almost forget to tell me about the form again and try to make it seem like i have to go get some address proof from somewhere...finally the form was just me giving them my cousins no and add (which is where i stay too!) and theyre going to call her and ask her if she knows me...right....like duh im going to give you the no of someone whos going to say that. proof. yay. awesomesauce.

basically i was being bitchy and aiming to mess up everyones day.
before all this, or somewhere in the middle (one o those times when i got home) i sent the job ppl an email saying my phones barred, so if u tried to call...here's the landline blahblah. and they sent email saying send us ur cv and photo for to send the delhi office. so im taking that as a positive sign. the other plc sent me a mail quoting an excessively low salary. meh. so iv replied saying i need to think bout it.

then...i had a chocolate mousse for lunch. in a desperate attempt to cheer self. but felt a bit sick at the end of it.
im recouping at home with lots of water and now im thinking about looping that vid of nph and how i met your mother guy singing confrontation.

Monday, 22 December 2008

i want nph for christmas

yes yes i know im overdoing it with the updates.
just stuck in that kind of loop right now and this was irresistible.

mmm pie!

im watching firefly (safe) in proxy for tons of comfort food. which i need because i hate it when little things go wrong. par exemple my cell phone not working at the mo. got this shady text from airtel saying that my calls will be barred today for they cannot verify my address... mehh. i has the biggest craving for tons of pie/flan/cheesecake/brownies/cake/cookies/benandjerrys/any ol dessert item...it was probably a mistake to stare too long at john mayer's blog which is simply choc full of photas of christmas related cake things. which inspired me to find a new firefox theme. it's all snow and candy canes now. shiny.
want to bake something for christmas...will plan something with dee...maybe cookies. all decorated and extra sweet...they could be normal round choc cookies but deco-ed to look like tree ornaments. melted chocolate frosting. with candies stuck on. or they cud look like lush puds.

also i dream of the pie maker. mmm :)

Saturday, 20 December 2008

friday frolics

yesterday was me hoofing it to divya's. a nice walk. not too long. but excercise like.
we were meant to watch 2 new episodes of house. but then stupid megavideo was fake loading it.
so we ended up listening to music and watching arbid things on youtube and being generally geeky. i made her watch trailers and clips from wonderfalls (beacause im always trying to get ppl to watch wonderfalls and discover the genius of brian fuller and also lee pace) and weebl and bob (i highly recommend this one) and eventually we ended up watching vids of the scary twillight fangirl who never ever leaves her house (i just know that she's got that disturbing edward bed sheet and pillowcase set with matching blanket...) and we madly cracked up over one comment which simply said: aaargh cave troll! XD

Friday, 19 December 2008

the friday fidgets

im just sitting here being increasingly fidgety...i should be getting a call from one job person any moment now. and then at 1.30 am auto-ing it to koramangla for a meeting...
listening to iron and wine 'our endless numbered days'. it makes me think of lying in a hammock in a wooded area in springtime...with the sun filtering down thru the leaves...sort of like the gobbledigook video. but more lazy.

^the coverart is really apt actually...his eyes are closed even :)

"I'm somebody's brother.."

a lot happens when u go off the internet for days on end...dirty sexy money and pushing daisies got cancelled o_o....and i was just getting into the show and rediscovering my love for lee pace...and no more glenn fitzgerald. nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...........

anyhoo for your viewing pleasure - the evolution of lee pace in the bryan fuller universe.

...and since i havent watched all the episodes...there's still that crossover (pushing daisies/wonderfalls) episode to look out for.

Thursday, 18 December 2008

here i go..arblegarble...mumbling!

ohowthefuckamistillcoherentgaaawwdddd! dr horrible on dvd available thru amazon! to preorder now! must go chek if it's also available on amazon.co.uk..omgomgomgomg.....just omg...read this.
*goes off to chek amazon.co.uk*
and omg the extras and everything mad and all that is good with the world!
..or horrible with the world :D

but sadly i dont seem to find it on amazon.co.uk...but amazon.com ships to anywhere right? right?
k i think i will get it shipped to batley...and then get it when i visit or ma can mail it from there...or someone can bring it with them when they come here or something! i want it! i need it!

amazon confuses my brain O_O...but i will do this. i will.

eventually. after thought :D ohh the brain boggles with glee at this wondrous news..

i dream of comic con

i was youtubing and found this vid (note: they cant kiss on the show because if he does she'll die again, such is the sadness of the pie maker)

which led me to believe that comic cons are like the make a wish foundation for all the little fangirls and boys around the world, who even though they might not make it in person to comic con, can relive a moment such as this, through the magic that is youtube.

another such video is the following:

and so in conclusion...i imagine the day when the cast of merlin appear at comic con and think of things they might be forced to do...i mean there is a precedent ;)

life update #whateveritis

i'm back! i'm better! i'm super-pave!

erm..no...not really...but im getting by. i have the internets again. at home. yes! i feel saner. still waiting to hear about job things. calling another person today to maybe see if i can go for an interview tomorrow. and i shud be getting another contact from divya... what can i say. if nothing works. it's back to the ol' wonderflonium and poison in the water main plan.

i get a lot of phone calls from concerned relatives. i saw an email from my grandfather enquiring bout the job hunt. dont think i can deal with replying to that yet.

the painters came and gave the plank of wood that is the ceiling of my bathroom a coat of paint. they are meant to come back sometime now and give it another coat...but i doubt that they will anytime soon. maybe they'll come tomorrow.

now my plan is (after making that phone call) - try and watch many episodes of house and dirty sexy money...will take a while to load...but i have youtube to keep me entertained while i wait :D

Thursday, 4 December 2008

kill me romantically...

this is the story of my most equellent (evil) plan of action to annoy my dearest cousine who i am currently residing with. it all began when she made the (big) mistake of idly informing me about her half irish boss. and then i prodded more and more details out of her...he wears glasses...has longish hair...likes the london underground and then i began to feel that he would be the ideal victim for to have an unseen crush (obsession) on. and now i ask her about his musical tastes for to judge compatibility which annoys her no end..im all: does he like pie? does he like bright eyes? what about folktronica? is he dr horrible in his spare time? blahdiblahblahblah...

but she has her ways of annoying me too..which r much less verbal than my ways. she has the power of the grumpy face, the grimace and her own speshul way of saying the word 'no' which can be quite scary...

oh how i love being a pain in the bee-hind!

Wednesday, 3 December 2008


sunday was a day of extreme gloom and i might have scared my friends a little...but that was just pms. and now am applying to more places for jobs. with the slow internet i have found. my laptop died. which caused me to mourn much. no music. that was the worst part. and just when i wanted to loop 'welcome to the dollhouse' and 'le beau charcutier' (kotki dwa) i highly recommend the bad french accents and strange lyrics :) today i was on a quest to find wifi and coffee...i found coffee but no wifi and then found wifi but it was in this hotel which hifi security and airport style full body scans and blah...so i got a bit paranoid and hi tailed it out o there..
mm probly meeting dee later today and going to her plc, mebbe staying over. i dunno yet.

Wednesday, 26 November 2008

she went to see a mystic who made medicine from rain...

i'm back in indian lands after ages at the airport (tried to sleep, drank coffee and soup) and on planes (sleep, conor and the dark knight in bits - all out of order).
day 1 - visited relatives, my most soberest outfit was underappreciated by my grandfather who thought i looked like a hare krishna person and un professional, and my uncombed hair got its fair share of comments too...
day 2 - went to the , watched quantum of solace with aunts (daniel craig is the most non sean connery bond you can find and its beyond me how any of his mumbled pick up lines worked on the women in the movie).

day 3 - lunch with paro and divya (noodle house), sleptover at divyas (beautiful rainstorm which went on into the next morning).
day 4 - lounging at divyas (firefly watching, musicing, youtubing) and then dinner at an aunts place (the one who has tendencies of overstuffing...i still feel quite full now but it wasnt as bad as it couldve been :D)

plan for tomorrow - driving to bangalore to stay with my cousin...then meetings bout job on fri...blahblah...

was watching some news about a call girl and some politician (american i think)
and they quoted from what she said, something along the lines of - i'm just a 'normal girl', 'with many layers' ...and obviously i proceeded to crack up and thinks things along the lines of....

Friday, 21 November 2008

tangled dream webs...

so it's early, the moon is crescenty and mysterious and i'm awake because i can never sleep before days o tension. anyhoo so much convoluted dreamage happened...
deepthi and labbu were there and we went to see solly and i was reminiscing about something he'd said which had stayed with me...i was telling his wife about it (something to do with balancing teacups and saucers and somehow this was of great design importance)and they were both v impressed that i still remembered it. and then dee and lab and me were in this creepy (but posh) place where they messed with people's brains and restricted their thoughts and what they could dream about...so one day you'd be forced to think only about the hideosity in your life and whatnot. then there was loads of stuff about trying to escape the place and being on 2 different train platforms (labbu on one, dee and me on the other...pli was supposed to be there but she hadnt arrived yet) and dee had to find something so we missed the train...
and in the middle of all this drama...i just know there was something bout kissing nathan fillion (i wasnt me at this point, i was a dream character). i dont remember the context. :)

Thursday, 20 November 2008

Plank smells like fresh cut flowers spewn across a babbling brook with a hint of lemon.

i really wanted to watch it when i saw what it was about..i think i caught it in the middle somewhere and got totally freaked out...a dead man's voice speaking over unconnected visuals...like fat planks of wood going down a conveyor belt in some sort of wood factory..while he was talking about...not wood. usually i am all for things implying other things...but this would just work so much better without the eerie juxtaposition that reminds you of the deadness. id listen to it if it came out on audio and let my brain make me see. as a movie...the context in which he said those things (whatever) is just lost.

^for divya: it's a kurt cobain docu called kurt cobain, about a son (in case u cant watch the vids)

Wednesday, 19 November 2008


i seem to be having packing problems...im almost done with one bag, but the other is completely empty. things i cant pack til the last min: bath stuff, laptop, wacom...(its like i have a packing mental block...have all the things laid out but cant put em in yet..)

anyhoo i must report on something magical that has taken place. i had these purple flowers in a bottle in my room and they lasted a really long time (months) and then today finally they looked a bit weedy so decided to get rid of em..and then i noticed the roots at the bottom :D now its a baby plant mutation thing and iv refilled the water and left it to live long and prosper hopefully.

other things iv done today: cleaned up window and stored away all the windowsill stuff, chucked (composted) many old bills, photographed then chucked (recycled) my innocent smoothie of the month bottle collection :(
transferred the audio recordings from my phone to the comp and listened hard to this weird one and identified sven's voice saying: i like static.
i have absolutely no memory of that convi. weird.

listening to: pete murray

Nina Van Horn: Excuse me, has anyone seen my crazy person?

Guess who's gone insaaane?!
ans: Chris Martin.

Sunday, 16 November 2008

sunday morning, rain isnt falling...

it's a bright and sunny morning and rachel and me are listening to depressing music (the cure) while i wait for divya to come back to our chat convi from drinking coffee or whatever she's gone off to do. i am reading 'please kill me' which is pretty depressing too as its about all the crazy things people in punk bands did when they were on cocaine or heroin or coming off them or taking substitute drugs while the girls who liked them cut themselves to get noticed blah blah blah...on the whole a good read :D

and now its old bright eyes. which is indeed more depressing than new bright eyes... i believe u rachellle. i do.

Friday, 14 November 2008

"now we have to be married. i'm in the family way."

hideous hideous dream...i was with the parentals in a sort of hillside resort (india/uk hybrid plc) and i found out that i was pregnant (spontaneously pregant...without the sex i mean) and had to tell em...and i wanted to get an abortion obv...but also i was very sad...so was in tears for the most part. and then the mater and me went walking thru the countryside at night to these different shady places to find someone to do it. lots of creepy villages and old womens and blah. then i think we found the right place but they told us to come back later...

then dream switched off to something gilmore related.


on a happier note. its possible i had this dream beacause i watched this (waaaaaait for it!):

last night :)

Wednesday, 12 November 2008

Gus, je t'aime.

watched 'paris je t'aime' yesterday. so beautiful. many short filums which make one seamless movie. my faves were 'le marais' -the gus van sant one, the natalie portman one...

anyhoo was cheking out where id seen the gus van sant bois before [such gus van sant faces they have...the sort where they dont have to move, can just sit there...and im perfectly happy to just sit and watch them...i guess the word would be beautiful people. but thats wrong. its more than that. a certain sort of stillness] this one was like gus van sant fast fwd. i dont think theres even been that much dialogue in that little space in a gus van sant movie [mebbe good will hunting] ...but still theres the gus van sant ponderous stillness that hangs over the whole thing [lol i sound mental...] anyways..now for some photas!

gaspard ulliel/elias mcconnell [a very long engagement/elephant]
and...more of them and [previously/scroll up!] them in 'le marais' [paris je t'aime]

ps. also loved elijah as a vampire [beautiful shiny red blood] and the one with the boi and muslim chick and her cute grandpa.

pps. when i was on the train in leeds saw so many gus like people...felt to stare much...one girl sitting right in front of me. and a couple of fellas.

ppps. some gorjuss dialogue from it. imdb provides :)

Gaspard: [in french]
You believe in soul mates? Finding your other half? You like jazz? Charlie Parker... and Kurt Cobain. I love him! Whatever. Here's my number. I'd really like to talk with you, if you call me, more seriously and... for longer, especially. [leaves]

anyway point being. i want to be like that. proactive.

Monday, 10 November 2008

prince panda and peter "the magnificent"

just got done watching prince caspian. felt to watch for to see ben barnes. doing a funny accent. anyhoo weird thing. from the first scene with all 4 of em in, i got this sudden flash of a vibe between susan and peter. like a non-brother/sister vibe obv. and after some research and investigation (googling) i find they were indeed an item about 1300 narnia years ago... (wait hmm interesting it wud seem that he denies all...hmm mmmmmhmmmmmmmmmmmmm...haha funniest interview everrr)...but then i dont rem noticing anything when watching the first one...


no vibe

ps. god! regina at the end. perfection. going to play it once more. then to bed it is for me.
pps. id say glasses boi wins over peter/panda/edmund. lols imdb credits him as "geeky boy" excellent!...more imdbing...haha ben barnes was dakin in the stage play o the history boys. lol. want to see!

Sunday, 9 November 2008


watched 'easy virtue' and 'evil dead 2' today...
i loved it. but it looks like i will have to wait for my perfect ending kristin scott thomas/colin firth movie. they need to be together after the horror that was the english patient. i love you but you dont love me anymore so i must crash my plane and kill us both. whoohoo.

i loved it. ah bruce campbell. id only seen him in 'the woods' before this movie. and it was in the leeds international filum festival and they said that he's like this big cult horror movie person with large fan following...now it makes sense. he's awesome. awesome. omg look my hand is possessed and i have to cut it off with a chainsaw..hahahahaaaaa.....

other happenings. high fived random drunk boi. overheard boi exclaiming bout how he is fucking sweet. ate chocolate. walked fast. stalked rachel a bit.

Friday, 7 November 2008

Rotters, swatters and shooters

halfway thru 'the rotters' club' by Jonathan Coe...tis reminding me of school. of the large portions of my life that i have shoved into repressed sections of my brain...things that make me blush. moments when i was awkward or dense or did stupid things. i was much dense all the time. the sort of person who zoned out and then said something in the middle of the convi which could be interpreted in horrible, double-meaninged, foot in mouth manner *shudder* but its a good memory anyway. would be much worse to have no memories like that...

why rachellle? why do you have to be the only one who gets arbid quotes? whatever shal i do :(

i woke up from the strangest dream in the morn...me and divya were playing badminton in this wide wood panelled corridor (wide for a corridor, narrow for badminton, somehow fireflyish) and i got really good at it...and then i decided to join the local team, but they didnt think i was good enuf (yes it was team badminton with 6/8 ppl to a side)...then we found some rules to show how i cud join divyas team altho it wasnt my local one blah di blah...much dramas and the gilmore girls came into it somehow...and it ended with all of us in this pub where there were pretty serial lights behind the bar and divya was bartender and i asked her to make me a fun cocktail. so she made me this 'shooter' which was in a pint glass and was a pink kool aid like colour...it was called corky something shooter...yummy...mostly tasted like strawberry kool aid.

Tuesday, 4 November 2008

that which is up with me

just a general update...
going home soon. wil be travelling for 3 days (technically)
21st nov - manchester to heathrow
22nd morn heathrow to chennai/madras/home
reach madras 1 am indian std time on sun the 23rd.
bot return ticket for feb as its stupidly (MUCH) cheaper than a one way...

  • going home
  • staying with the fun uncle
  • wont have to be in depressing empty house
  • shud have a job soon if all goes to plan...
  • wil be all alone in the city for the first time..not staying at home home.
  • things r still uncertainish
  • will miss people
  • havent done my christmas shopping yet. the clock is ticking.

more misc shtuf

  • watched all the episodes of firefly i hadnt seen already...ok so the continuity in my head is a tad messed up. but mostly makes sense. want more epis :( stupid stupid fox fools..first wonderfalls now this?! brainlessness much?
  • watched memento! omg mindblowing! no words.
  • while eavedropping on the way to olvias on sat overheard some ppl singing the mother 'uckers song from flight of the conchords! much glee!

Saturday, 25 October 2008

o romeo romeo...

'twas october night of the 24th day when watched we - 3 plays, part of the shakespeare schools festival at the west yorkshire playhouse. midsummer, much ado about nothing and romeo et juliet. am tied between the first and the last for a fave.

the sets were really minimalist (just the way i like it) just hazy projections for indoor and outdoor...the indoor one was a projection of a big latticed window and the light coming in and hitting the floor...and the outdoor one was like hazy leafy effect...but v pale and barely there
much ado just had one flowery archway extra for ppl to hide behind...

it was the best version of midsummer iv seen (and iv seen a total of 3 so far i think...) this was just the most fun, alive, happy, free performance...little kids have that advantage of doing things naturally...it was the little touches that made it hilarious. bottom going to sleep on all fours like a real ass. such cute braying - hee haw in squeaky manner. puck in a jesters hat skipping off stage...like he'd start with a normal walk and as he s almost off, a lil tiny skip in the step..and lil eye rolls as oberon was being oberon :D best oberon too! hehe he was a thin tall glasses wearing (joss whedon geek villain sort, but still studly enuf to pull off carrying the sleeping titania) ..and puck was his little minion. and one o the fairies was a little boy fairy. colourful pjs, bunian (wifebeater), purple tutu...and he got to carry bottom off the stage. too funny. he was way smaller than the other boy :D muscles! ooh!

much ado was hampered by the fact that the cast was older than the other 2 casts...and this gimmicky 80s thing they had going on...they were all covered up by big wigs and 80s suits...and spent more time on acting the moment in an 80s way instead of a realistic way (i think it's like by then ur idea of what acting is, is formed. and then u cant go back to being all im just being happy on stage) ...i dont know how to desc. there is one funny thing.. :) claudio and hero kiss (this is like 16 yr olds) and it was like a lips bouncing off each other minute moment... it wudnt have stuck in the mind if it wasnt followed by romeo and juliet...

so yeah 12 year olds i think...v minimalist but perfect...all in black...with lil touches of red/yellow to show which house they belonged to. romeo was this skinny-tee wearing emo-brown-haired boy (straight hair all brushed into face) with a yellow ribbon around the wrist... it was so beautiful. they were all really into their roles. nothing over the top or acted about it...by the end of it you're just involved, forget that they're 12 year olds...and want them not to die! her father was obv a boy her own age and they hadnt bothered with aging him up or anything (black shirt and red tie as opposed to romeo's tee shirt wearingness - more than enuf) anyhoo kisses :) there were atleast 3 separate moments when they had to cause its in the dialogue (with this kiss i die etc)...and it was so normal (ok the first time its a bit strange, just cause u stil rem their 12ness) pretty hazy red lighting hitting his emo hair as he moved back and his hair moved back too...like detached from her face...gahh am describing this badly.

decided it needed illustrating!

in the post speeching, organising female mentioned that they'd made the stage manager cry thrice that day :) (rehearsal and techs and evrything..) id not seen romeo and juliet on stage before. so beautiful. still thinking bout it :)
my nu theory
shakespeare shud be performed by chilluns always!

Friday, 24 October 2008

brian jr ftw!

^click! im going to brazil!

i watch dirty sexy money for the brian/nick moments. they r my nu seth/ryan...lol brian is seth, he's defo the more dramatic o the 2. dashing off to brazil to kidnap his son :D nick is dragged into drama that he doesnt seek. other ppl book him flights to france to reconnect with his mother...so ryan. but in this case brian's the man. if i had to pick a fictional brozzer, id pick him. nu musical discovery the weepies

yeah i totally hooked up with your grandpa's girlfriend :D-
you and my grandmother??! :D-

also i heart gustav

Wednesday, 22 October 2008

darth anna and the mockage side

almost forgot to update about the past couple days in my half nelson distraction. anyhoo i got whisked off to sheffield sun night when anna and her parents came to visit.

sun one episode of 'firefly' (the one which starts with nathan fillion naked in the desert...his evil ex wife etc :D), 'serenity', half of 'bring it on' (for reasons of extreme mockage and eliza dushku is hot i think)
mon second half of bring it on, futurama, 'breach'...the OC (episode with the killers in, mr flowers looks maha shmal)-(anna's a fan too :D and we both agree that ryan can act and seth/ryan bits r best blah blah) half nelson :) we did record 'insomnia' and some other movie but never got round to actually viewing...
tues (morn) bout half hr of 'high school musical' (afore mentioned mockage....way more extreme than bring it on...). train to leeds (anna got to watch the oc while i sat in a train! LOL *sob*). met suzanna who's now studying in leeds (senior frm my ug). bonded over food and movies and goss.

i should really stop telling ppl that i went to sheffield. the past few times have been pretty much actually i went to annas house and we didnt leave...the weather was shite so we had an excuse to veg. she gave me the best directions. i had to take bus frm her plc to the city and walk to the train station. sheffied was purdy. the sun was high and the rain was falling...so it wasnt cold...and things were sparkly like...and sheffield station is just surrealness. fountains, water flowing down shiny metal walls...

hehe i knew i was in sheffield when some bois on the bus were discussing snooker and the smallness of the balls vs the largeness of the pockets or some such thing...and star wars vid games... :) its fun to spy.

Tuesday, 21 October 2008

why 'half nelson' is killer!

ryan gosling as dan dunne.

specifically...we meet him mid story...so he's just the cool teacher who doesnt talk down to his students...doesnt prove to them that they have nothing to fear from each other or him blah blah it isnt sentimental. he's the guy who uses words like 'dialectics' :) his actings tres casuale, like the drug habit. its like the most normal thing...he cleans his glass coffee table with glass spray before doing lines off it :)...he's got the scruffy, skinny, stubbly (beardy) shirt wearing look down, and it just gets better thru the movie...frm tucked...to untucked...and check...and the white 'u' bottomed short sleeve-ed one! he has a cat. eyes which look like marbles in the sunlight. stick up-y veins when having his arms round ppl...never ever creepy. even when he's on the floor after getting high in the locker room and she s mopping off his forehead with a paper towel. and he's holding her hand to his head...or when theyre dancing at a school thing...its very obviously concerned teacher/studenty.
good ending. realistic. satisfactory.
booti music too. broken social scene.

i have a favourite moment which shall be revealed after you watch it. and tell me urs.
there is a right ans.

Sunday, 19 October 2008

baaba day

trump lost. but it was bootiful. he made a comeback from 4-1 down to level at 4 all and then higgins won 6-4...rest o the day has been spent hanging out with dad's friends' daughter kaavya. happy me. chilluns make me happy. conveniently id been experimenting with stencils last week and had em cut out in my room...so she drew teddys and rabbits and commanded me to draw too...yellow stars and pink flowers...got messy with paints and everything...hehe she got a lil daub of green on her nose...she doesnt seem to grow really...everytime i see her she's still small..talking more now tho...she was all fascinated by the sticky things on my window...i have these circles and an elephant and blah...she called them 'jelly bubbles' :D good day. she got all comfy with me and didnt want to stop painting :D and then i carried her down the stairs when they were leaving and all...cause her mum was carrying other things.. :)

it's so easy to make out when ppl r good with chilluns...its a good test...i tend to like ppl who know how to be around chilluns...there r some ppl who r too organised (idiots who r all omg u can only paint in the bathroom cause i dont want my neat whiiite house to get dirty) or just dont like chilluns...

Saturday, 18 October 2008


i think i have a sibling obsession. before i was watching 'dirty sexy money' just for brian (glenn fitzgerald) and i still am but i also adore the brian/nick (peter krause) scenes. them getting to know each other as (half) siblings. __all that happened between them in this episode was one look and brian giving nick his champagne glass to give to a waiter. lol. it was a great look tho. update! watched epi 2. the plot thickens! and longer scenes avec those two (in jail no less). love it.
- i love the tacky glam of the 'dirty sexy money' titles. sparkly pink. greeen. mixing fonts. so wrong everywhere else. but here apropos (i have always wanted to use that word somewhere ;)).

most of my absolute fave scenes from movies are between siblings:
  • almost famous - when anita gets their mother to tell william his real age and he's all i'm eleven!
  • billy elliot - when billy's on the bus and his brother talks to him from outside (i'm going to miss you) and billy cant hear him...
  • the myth of fingerprints - when mia (julianne moore)'s bf attacks her at the dinner table and says that she puts too much mustard on sandwiches making them 'mustard' sandwiches...and her brozzer warren (noah wyle) says that he likes her...and she's all you have to..you're my brother...
it's probably because i dont have any :)

ps. he's not rev brian anymore. so i dont have the 'omg can i think he's a hot priest?!' thing...he made that collar look yummy. and thankfully i still find him yummy.

Friday, 17 October 2008

NOT selby's day

meh. day won (5-4) decider was super devastating. selby made a come back and made it 4-4 after being like 3-0 down or something...:'( i is heartbroken. corny jokes come to mind about the vampyr beaten by the day n shite. but am not in the mood. anyways, tomorrow:
trump vs. ronnie
day vs. cope
higgins vs. ding
carter vs. davis

all of which r much less tension than today. cause honestly i dont want any of em to win as much as i was rooting for selby. (id love for trump to win...but really does anyone see it happening? despite the genius of trump that is) the only one which am not sure bout is the higgins/ding one. but u never know. i was so sure about today too.


update! tomorrow's matches!
who i think will win
/who i want to win

trump vs. higgins
(so happy! i so was not ready for him to beat ronnie. at the mid session interval, they were asking whether he'd missed the boat, letting ronnie level at 2-2 n all that...deciding frame was much excitement and tension tho. booti!)
carter vs. day (because carter is de-growing on me...when contrasted with trump who just small smiled after winning...the drama-ness of carter pains me...of course the real drama queen was peter ebdon :/)

Thursday, 16 October 2008

snooker 5

pfft. now that stephen hendry is out of the grand prix (that century was bootiful tho), i have a personal top 5 who am all for:

1. mark selby (the vampyr)

2. john higgins

3. judd trump (the hair)

4. ronnie o'sullivan

5. ali carter

judd trump is my new boi. he's 19! watched him beat joe perry yesterday. awesomeness. the long potting. the genius. wow.

Wednesday, 15 October 2008

only just/a little back and forth/lately

playlist of the mo:

le fils de trois mousquetaires
the verve

its getting eerie how house is echoing my life...like the felicia day epi right after watching dr horrible. and now house's ringtone for the team is 'MMMbop'!!!!!? the universe is trying to tell me something...anyway now trying to rem why i started on hanson again...it was after light night...me n rachel had this convi bout hanson...but y i dont rem...we were singing dr horrible tunes as always...talking about the lima show and walking to hyde park and they came up randomly...then i was feeling blue on sunday and started with the youtubing and podcasting which lead to me ordering the middle of nowhere cd off amazon...which hasnt arrived yet! cant wait! shit this is going to make me go fully bonkers...i must know! how hanson? why hanson? why now?

anyway...been watching the podcast in reverse it wud seem...started with 'taking the walk' and now watching 'strong enough to break'. oh man its hideous. id die if i had to deal with fools who didnt get the music and just kept saying...write more...start from scratch..we dont think you have an album..and this is after bloody 23 songs! and watching it after watching them make 'the walk' where the whole vibe is more...in control and just happier.

rachel! if u read this...remind me.
oh wait i might have made the acapella connection...from us singing. was it that?

Monday, 13 October 2008


omg proper goosebumps all over. its so beautiful.

they are feel good. they love what theyre doing and it makes me sad and happy and want to cry like in the beatles song. because...because they are. because iv had a soft spot for this song since i first heard it...because i found this version on you tube. i want to cry. going to shower now. late at night...i have many reasons for wanting to cry...dont worry...am not insane...am not teary over hanson...play it another time and maybe i will be tho...
ps. now watching the other songs they did in that concert. which was them doing their first album now acoustically. like a 10 yr anniversary perf. god. wow. harmonies. and they have podcast vids up on youtube, docu on how they made recent album. im dowloading it :D

i heart stephen

spent a nice afternoon watching snooker (with the pater...i love everything about it...the way the commentators r never wrong...the sound the balls make...the funky positions they stand in all serious when planning and making shots...impossible seeming shots going in...its like omg miracle. wow. its happy on so many levelss). gilbert vs hendry. much tension last frame. so many times i didnt want to watch. wanted hendry to win so bad. and he did. maybe some other time when dave gilbert isnt playing hendry i cud be on his side. he seems like nice boi. cute. he shud win stuff. :) but my love shud win always. then i will be happy happy happy. cute interview afterward. he made jokes. and was just...stephen hendry. :D

listening to the new keane album now. feel to loop :)

Sunday, 12 October 2008

princess sparkle

(^i heart fb graffiti)

i'm awake. but havent started working on editing the article yet. it needs shortening. :/
rachel is leaving me today. i is abandoned. first divya. now this. noooooooooooooooooooo!
i was awake at some abnormal hr this morn. pliiii called. how convenient. how wonderful. happy me. shite now am fully in the missage. i wants my girlies immediatement. and the music am listening to is not helping. tunng. just watched all the vids of yest. they r much random :D now i can say that i know marianne dashwood. she's a close personal friend, thank you very much.


yes it's pop. but it's good pop.

Friday, 10 October 2008


watched bones. finished article!

as usual the bathroom provided the necessary inspiration :D i just took a book in with me and wrote it longhand. needed a break from typing to focus the mind. i like it better than most of the stuf iv written for uni, 1. because its not in forced past tense 2. because its not in stupid third person...so after 8 foolscap handwritten pages (sides) and 5 typed pages of notes - i have one article which i am happy with at the moment. tomorrow is another day ...i could read it again and want to killmeself ;) pressure = good. i r happy.

anyway in other news: guess who was on bones tonight!! the episode combined 2 very good things! the dog whisperer and bones. so many dogs in the epi. much love. much love for cesar too. sad epi tho...

favourite bones character: sweets.
word of the month: snarky.

Thursday, 9 October 2008


^ weird imdb trivia: Philip K. Dick claimed that footage of the film was exactly what he had envisioned when he wrote the book. However, Ridley Scott, who was notorious for having gotten exactly the visual look he wanted, claimed to have never read Dick's source novel "Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?" the weird bit: Philip K. Dick - date of death: 2nd March 1982, Blade Runner - release date: 25th June 1982. I guess he got to see advance footage or something...

my clothes have been neatly folded and put away after ages [some chucked, some to give to oxfam type things]. thats some of the kipple that my room is taken care of. this is my regular procrastination by cleaning up that precedes work that i have to do but dread mildly. i have to write this article. i get all stressed when its formal writing i.e. not fiction :S meh. iv got to get it done by tonight. it will get done :D

today's been good. dad's birthday. we had this big ganapati omam thing for the house. big not on an indian scale but in the sense that people came over to do the puja etc. iv got many grains frm ze puja to feed the birds with. some r in the garden now and the rest is in a dabba for tom. might feed the pigeons outside the leeds city art gallery tom. yay light night. fun fun.

the article that im writing is quite fun actually. its all about iconic design. but then the thoughts i have in my head which are all enthu never quite translate well when written down. things start sounding less enthu and magical and...

sunny day mostly :) i want it to be muuuch hotter tho.

almost forgot to mention my big discovery!
guess what the one republic dude's name is?! the one who looks like ryan off the OC!

you guessed it! it's RYAN! :D


makes me happy.

ps. iv just remembered the photo album things dee and me used to make for our fictional characters [we spent a lot of time on them before any story writing took place...sometimes we didnt get as far as writing the story down...] we cut out pictures from old seventeen type mags. and just used pics of diff fellows who looked a bit the same for different age ranges o the same char :) we did the same for our barbie photo albums too...i is nostalgic all suddenly.

Tuesday, 7 October 2008

to sleep perchance to...

hideous dream. deepthi said that hazel [my old dog] was looking sad and wondered why...so i went to look for her...i sit down on the pavement behind this tan dog with black ears and begin to stroke her head and she looks back and me [upside down eyes] and i realise she's not hazel [bit obvious really since hazel was white and fluffy] and then someone behind me [probably her owner] took a picture of us. then there was a bit with two babies in a pram and a crowd of people gathered round the pram...anyway i hunted and didnt find her...and just before waking up thought...its fine ill find her when i wake up...but then i woke up and the hideosity of it all struck me. no hazel. :(
i probably dreamt it because of do androids dream of electric sheep? finished it yesterday. the whole real animal vs electric animal...so sad. *shudder*

click on the frog.
search: you remind me - steve poltz

Sunday, 5 October 2008

the sony aibo scares me >_<

reading 'do androids dream of electric sheep?' which is geniunely creepy and bleak. i dont think there were electric sheep in blade runner {i dont remember the sheep anyway...} but the vibe is the same {the book is a tad bleaker}...am bout halfway thru. really easy reading. the title means so much more while reading. would i leave the earth if i had to {after a nuclear war and blah}? how human would i be if there was a test for that?

^ps. from ducky to alan.

Friday, 3 October 2008

the story of the weird day

1. my tights fell off..like literally...i was wearing my long grey stripey tee and my blue dress over and my white tights...and i can feel them sliding down...and try yanking up slightly ...but then figure ok they cant slide down too far...but then they really come down almost below the dress...
i saved it by walking muuuch slowly {which i have to do anyway because my ankle's fukd} to the union and making a quick change in the loo [pants, took the dress and tights off, put scarf on...completement nu look!]
note to rachellle: i am not trying to write like stephenie meyer. it's just what happened.

2. i nearly didnt get off the train at the batley station...was engrossed in 'mort' and then suddenly i see batley out of the train window and get up and run and the doors closed...and im all gloom and doom and realise iv dropped bags anyway...so go pick em up..and luckily the train conductor man was all oh do you have to get off....and he opened the door for me again! eergh i dont even want to thiink about what wudve happened otherwise...

the universe was playing with me a little bit :D at first i was amused by the tights incident cause i saved it...but by the end o the day i needed my houmous and pitta to make things right again :)

the end

Monday, 29 September 2008

penny: "what kind of beer?"

reading: please kill me - the uncensored oral history of punk
to read: mort - terry pratchett+do androids dream of electric sheep? - philip k. dick
listening to: the stooges/iggy pop
to listen: the velvet underground and nico/kinks

got back from the library with the above mentioned stash o music and books. i got please kill me off rachel. am still in the proto punk stages o the book. lou reed. stooges. mc5. new york dolls. patti smith. warhol. edie. nico. danny fields. heroin. glitter. that whole scene...ohh and this morn i watched another awesome bbc docu: the pink floyd story: which one's pink? now i cant start properly listening to them :D i dont get why people have to act like some bands r mutually exclusive. like the beatles vs pink floyd.
anyhoo bbc docus r the best. the floyd one was really extra personalish as the main interviewees were the band members...i found bob geldof's presence a bit out of place actually...i mean it made sense in the end because he made the reunion concert happen but other than that his comments on them seemed irrelevant...
iv been having a musical day i say. just remembered that i listened to radio one after ages in the morn and noel gallagher was talking to chris moyles. about the electric proms and blah. he is muchly listenable to.
i'm going to miss iplayer when i go back to indias.
other things i might miss: radio 1...erm...am sure there r more things i will miss...my booti frends obv...but things? hmm...flake, pound stores...houmous! but could attempt making it at home.. :D..and grassy places to lie on sunny days...
things i defo wont miss:
the itv fuckwit commentators
the cold jacket weather
to be continued.

Sunday, 28 September 2008


watched the sideyest countdown on E!...25 style icons or something. its bout how ppl lost their soul and individuality to that hideous thing called fashion otherwise known as the cult of wearing black black and more black in the name of being i dont know what...eergh...lets take a bunch of nice normal ppl being colourful and happy and 80s and punk and all things nice and make them clones and then call them icons so that other people can aspire to becoming clones. the evil plan is complete. total domination through sheepification. in the words of claude in can't hardly wait 'baa!'

look how beautiful>

ps. dont miss the mighty ducks reference.